Confessions of a Bored Housewife

I woke up on my soapbox today and in attempting to calm myself down, I realized that I am still angry at Heidi. Everything that she's done has caused this tiny burning inside of me and every time I turn a corner, someone douses the flame with a little gasoline.

I understand the nature of opinions (as they relate to certain sun-don't-shine areas of the human anatomy) and the irrefutability of free thinking, but it continues to bother me that some people liken us to bored housewives, fat girls with chips on our shoulders, skinny girls who don't want anybody else to lose weight, obsessed maniacs and the like.

It further bothers me that some people feel that they so adamantly must warn us of the potential for failure, or of the logisitics of the California civil justice system. It's like the mother who warns her child, "Well, don't reach for your dreams, honey, because, you know, they probably won't come true."

Half of the fun in the process of dreaming is actually having the dream. I can tell you that 90% of the satisfaction in speaking out against crimes against fat (and formerly) fat girls on the Internet is the actual speaking out (not to mention the quiet and not-so-quiet Rockstars you meet along the way).

Yes, I was wronged. You are free to think of that wrong what you will. I, however, as a party to that wrong, am free to act on that wrong in the ways that my government has deemed appropriate.

It might not bother you very much that a few thousand of us were ripped off because people get ripped off all the time, because you think we were stupid to sign up in the first place, because you admire the intracicies of what amounts to modern thievery, because there are bigger and more noble causes to care about, because people shouldn't get fat in the first place, because you don't like it when people stand up for themselves, because you want to lose weight by any means necessary, or because you just don't care.

I, however, am allowed to be just as bothered by Heidi's scams as you aren't. And I choose to be. No matter the outcome. At the end of the day, I will rest easy knowing that I stood up for myself, for what I believed was right and did everything that I could to rectify a wrong.

So, call me what you will and I'll be that.

There's nothing anybody can say to convince me that loving myself enough to speak out when I'm wronged and loving others enough to speak out when they are wronged is a petty thing to do. Because if people didn't do this, I wouldn't be here typing this message to you and you probably wouldn't be free to surf to the ends of the Internet and read this.

Sincerely,

Jeanessa

aka A Bored Housewife
aka An Angry Duck
aka A Fat Girl with an Attitude
aka A Stupid Chick
aka An Obsessed Maniac

Take courage...

I did not intend for this to be a Kimkins blog at all...and that is still not my intention. I want this blog to be about my life in general. I'm coming to the realization that Kimkins is part of my life right now. I made a decision back in early September to put my name on the top of a class action lawsuit. At the time, I didn't know fully what that entailed. I am swiftly learning. I composed this impassioned email to several attorneys and spoke at length with them to try to determine what the best course of action would be because Heidi Diaz was just wrong, and all my life, people have been telling me that the justice system works, that we fight against wrongs. So, this is how I approached the whole Kimkins fiasco.

This last week in Ducky land has been an interesting one. Lots of fights and super-secret revelations of CIA-esque proportions. And I've been thinking about what it all means.

It means that what we're doing matters. It means that we are making progress.

I spoke with John today and he always makes me feel like things are 100% better. I am SO glad he wrote me back bck then and listened to my long, convoluted unbelieveable story about the Kimmer and this crazy starvation diet on the Internet. I can't believe this brilliant, tenacious man cared enough about a bunch of fat (and formerly fat) girls on the Internet who had been conned. But he did. And it's awesome!

With all the bad things that have been said lately, I wanted to take some time out to say some good things. So, here goes!

I'm calling out names (forgive me if I don't mention you, I don't know everything)....a partial cast list....

Tooter - I love you because you never change. You are always tenacious, you are always up front and you never give up! You're always enouraging, you always question things and I love to see your now very familiar, pretty face on my computer screen as I scroll the FWK thread.

Cleo - damn, I have never seen anyone with your sense of humor and biting cynicism. I love it! All that pizzaz plus riced cauliflower pizza, oopsies and bento! You think outside the box and you say it like it is. We're lucky that you choose to spend any time with us.

Honeybee - Girl, you are the Queen of all Sleuthing. You have set the standard for tenacity and Duckydom and I don't know where we would be without you. Where have you been lately? Bring yourself right back here to us and encourage us to keep sleuthing!

Tom - thank you for allowing us the space to vent and explore. Please never let the drama deter you from allowing us to continue. We can't thank you enough.

Cutie - Well. You are the culprit behind this whole thing, you know? LOL! I thank you for every encouraging email, for being there in the early days when it was not safe to be anti-Kimkins and for laying down some solid groundwork for us all to tread on. It's amazing how far we've all come!

MrsMenopausal - You really make it worthwhile coming into the thread. You encourage, you fight, you admonish. That's what this is all about really. You were banned and you stood up and nothing has knocked you down. I'm so glad we're in this fight together.

v0xhumana - you're as consistent as can be, always asking the right questions and ready to dig for old info when you see where its needed. Plus I like your avatar!

Barbara B - you always spare a kind word for me and I don't think you know how much I appreciate it. I know that this fight has been a hard one, but take courage! Our work is not in vain and I love that you are here with me on this journey.

Katinsac - My Cali girl! You listened to my "little girl" voice on the phone and you encourage me all the time. You say what you mean, you mean what you say and you let the rest slide off your back. I wanna be more like you!

Yucky/Mimi/Loopy(this is what I always called you in my head, lol!) - you laugh when nobody else does! You keep me on my toes. You ask the questions that others are afraid to ask. You call me out on my bs. You make me laugh. You are steady and consistent, a rock! Imperfect, but beautiful, and worth every second I spend on your site. So, keep trucking.

MagicsMom - you blog, you hunt, you encourage, you never disappear, you always respond, you keep fighting! WOW, I wanna be like you, too, BANTA Babe!

Rebel - your house is lovely and we can all imagine sitting on the porch and sipping sweet tea. You always have a ready response, a ready question, you dig and fight, frolick and have fun, you're the kind of girl that makes posting on a thread fun.

WildAngel6 - what can I say? You're organizational and corraling skills are beyond compare. Thank you so much for doing all of this, for challenging us. We'd be far behind where we are if it wasn't for you. I use your links every single day.

MorganMacleoid - thanks for emailing me, helping me along, giving me information to share with John, asking the right questions to make me think, posting on Kimkins Dangers and hanging out on the thread back in the beginning. I've missed your posts and I'm glad you're still checking back with us and hope to see more of you.

jo2621 - thanks for always going into the Lion's Den and sharing your knowledge!

dlslds - You're like a machine! A very nice, very kind, very sleuthy machine that loves smilies.

Mayberryfan - Can I miss the Daughtry avatar, but I'm ok! You encourage me and support me and say nice things about me and, for that, I will always be eternally grateful. Plus, you sleuth and you poke and you have fun while doing it.

MomtoEli - you're such a sweetheart, all the nice words, forgiving me for being snippy with you and coming into the game with guns blazing!

LosingtoLive - when it's time to laugh, you have a good joke, when its time to fight, you have a snappy comeback, when its time to encourage, you have a kind word. You're a trooper.

Medusa - your blog rocks! I love it, all of the very so essential information about eating disorders and how very similar the Kimkins mindset is to them. Plus, you're bold as brass and that is a trait that I admire.

Deni - you are so quietly forceful and I know you're praying and that makes me feel at ease.

the Jimmy - I don't care what anybody says, I like you! Thanks for apologizing, thanks for standing up, thanks for providing a place for ex-KK to support each other and never, ever change!

Trista - thanks for putting your name out there to be gawked at when not many others were willing to. Thanks for standing up with me!

HBGal - wheverever you are! Thank you SO much for doing the KTLA show, for putting yourself out there to be gawked at and maligned and being so graceful, forthight and honest about your Kimkins experience. I hope to hear from you soon.

Missis36 - I miss you! You dig like a jackhammer and make me laugh. You were my favorite person on any thread anywhere and you know why! I hope to see you again soon!

Christin - THANK YOU! For the prayers, for the sharing of knowledge, for doing all those dang TV shows and talking with reporters, for fighting against Heidi's continued scamming, for being graceful under all kinds of pressure, for standing up and sticking out. If nobody else ever tells you this, you are the BOMB!

Carolyn F - you laugh at the good jokes and sleuth and support like nobody's business.

WifeZilla - for encouraging and sleuthing

BamaGal - what would we do without you? You are a backbone and a funny bone, too!

Paula Jayne - for starting the thread that never ends with a very good question!

Pooticus - for always laughing!

w00t - for being a cute guy! and for leaving Kimkins and standing up for yourself! You've been a breath of fresh air on the boards.

JustKim - for leaving KK and taking a little bit of her credibility with you. For standing up against Heidi. You may think you lost a friend, but, hon, you never had one in the first place!

TerryC - for always offering a helping hand and being willing to do whatever it takes to get things done!

Sheridan - for poking and prodding, giving me ideas and fighting the good fight!

Locarb4me - whew, you work your butt off! I can never keep up with you, but I feel good that I'm at least treading somewhere behind you!

Just Ducky - for coralling us. Man, oh, man, you rocked the anti-Kimkins movement. I don't know where you are or what you're doing, but thanks for what you did. Hope to see you posting again soon.

Miss Mezmerize - for the martinis and the meat, the youtube vids and everything in between.

2big4mysize - um....where could I begin? You rock. I can't even start to thank you for everything that you've done. I know there's more to do and you'll be instrumental in getting it done!

KimPossible - where are you? You supported me, PM'ed me, laughed at me and it was nice.

Becky - girl, you pray for me, you dig, you endure, you stand up. I can't thank you enough. I don't know if we would be this far if you hadn't stepped in and helped out. I think I know you in ways that some other people may not. I want you to know that I respect and admire you.

ixtapacheryl - I love your pics, your encouraging words, your support, your sleuthing and your consistency.

Prudentia (I almost forgot!) - for standing up for what you believe, blogging about it and being sane in stressful situations. I admire your tenacity and your ability to reason out emotional situations.

My fingers are tired....but there's SO many more....

MJR, LuckyKitty, LChottie07, Sheridan, gibster, beachfires, Queeny, LISAinTN, Lilgrnize, sissypoo, SMP, Amyb, cadydid, eggonmyface, Kelly130, Madam De Leon, lbbmp, TXniteowl, froleena, serenity-aus, prettypaula, kycowgirl, losingjusme, Sunabee, lindaokc, Woman Typing Badly, mum22, DoggyGirl, kar_kar, LINC, Binsk, RockyMntAngelEyes, Stevie, mimi, LCprincess, vernswifevickie, Boujie, emily1965, shelby7851, DivaHerself, Carolina Rose, Leashy, DivaTai, LovelyLady, MyCanneloni, Buff-N0-Tuff, DeliGirl,

I could be here all day.

I wanted to post this in case anyone is getting disheartened. We're not just one or two or a dozen people who have no life. We're a whole lot of people who have wonderful lives and who feel the need to stop an injustice that one woman found so easy to commit from behind the safety of a computer.

Take heart! There is more to come!!!

And it ain't over until the fat lady sings...and I haven't sang a tune yet, so sit tight!